THE SEX REBEL OF JESUSLAND, mini-chapter 67

67. THE INTRUSION OF FEELING

Eve woke up late the next morning. A daze held her in half-sleep.

Suddenly the feeling greeted her like an old man with briefly lit eyes, watery orbs, and a yellow-toothed smile, his hands enfolding her hand like two nests, sheltering the moist heart of the sparrow, agate-warm, saying to her it was all right, life was beginning again, a frisky young child had awoken in her.

It upset her greatly. This was a scientific experiment. It did not admit of emotion. She was not going to let her orgasms escape from her loins and take up room in her heart. She was going to keep the sparrow caged between her legs, and take a cold, scientific view of her new potential. She was going to search out a man much higher than her on the tier chain, a Blessed as high as Ezra, and attach him to her, be a bed for his seed, grow him like a mollusk on her barrier reef, and with a child and husband in hand, wriggle herself into the schemes of the Men of the Gospel, until the day she stood side by side with the highest in the land directing all the congregations of the country.

That was the plan.

She did not require another stumbling block, this feeling for the body of a man who was an arrested academic, albeit with the prospect of a TV program, but a man of limited fame and intellect who could only hold her back. He was at best a booster rocket she should shed, now that he had lifted her into a new biosphere of sexual satisfaction. Now she could feel independent. Now she could find a rocket that would fly with her all the way to the top.

It was time to think about ditching Adam before she began to want him too much, which she already did. She had to intervene. Her body was too ripe -- it could lead her astray. Her body could interfere with her mind and tell her heart what to do if she didn’t interrupt its wishes. She decided she needed only a few more sessions to firmly implant the habit of orgasm before she moved on. But every session would be dangerous. Every session would strengthen the resolve of her body and weaken the resolve of her will. Her body stood between her and her ambition.